It sounds like you're going through a really heavy time right now. Using music to process those "broken heart" feelings can be a way to let the emotions out, but please remember that you don't deserve to carry that self-hatred alone.
Text START to 678-678 or call 1-866-488-7386 It sounds like you're going through a really
Contact a suicide and crisis hotline.
Things can feel incredibly permanent when you're in the middle of the pain, but they can get better. but they can get better.