Billie Eilish - Fingers Crossed // Lyrics -

So she stood there, a statue of devotion, waiting for the bridge of the song to finally break into the light.

The lyrics echoed back: You really think I’m gonna let you go? billie eilish - fingers crossed // lyrics

She looked at her hands. Her knuckles were white, her fingers literally locked together in a tight, aching braid. It was a superstition she couldn't quit. If she let go, the fragile silence of the house might shatter. If she let go, the person she was waiting for might never find the door. So she stood there, a statue of devotion,

Elara was scared of the wind. It sounded too much like someone whispering her name from the hallway. She was scared of the dust motes dancing in the afternoon sun because they looked like memories she couldn't quite catch. But mostly, she was scared of the truth: that the person she was crossing her fingers for had already let go of hers. Her knuckles were white, her fingers literally locked

She closed her eyes and pictured a kitchen filled with steam, the smell of burnt toast, and a laugh that sounded like bright yellow paint. She held that image behind her eyelids, squeezing her fingers until they throbbed. A floorboard creaked behind her.